so this post is going to sound like a lot of ranting and raving and self pity and blah but...I don't mean it too. Ok I do mean it too but its just because I need to get this all out and I'm not really sure where else to do it.

I am sick of not knowing anyone here. I'm sick of having nothing better to do then sit around in my room and hope that someone else's life sucks enough for them to have nothing to do and happen to get on and then hope that we can actually have a conversation past the "hi how are yous".

I hate how you can be gone for a week and a half with limited to no cell reception and very small windows of time in which to check your phone and suddenly everyone you used to talk to regularly has suddenly forgotten about you and moved on and suddenly have nothing to say to you.

I hate how someone can claim to be your best friend, get a bf and get engaged and no longer have time to talk to you and never has anything to say to you and never has the time to listen when you need someone but still expects you to be there for them when they have a fight. But yet you still have to be the same best friend you've always been or they have a melt down. Nevermind the fact that you can't confront them or they get mad and you can't be busy and unable to answer the phone or they get mad.

I hate it when my roomies fight. And I hate it when they blow up on me for no reason. I have no idea what is going on. I didn't sign up to be their "best friend" or to hang out with them every single minute I have free. I signed up to move in and pay rent and split the bills. I hate all the yelling and anger and I hate feeling like I have to avoid people.

*sigh* oh well