Reaching For the Future

I can't believe its 2010. lets do some flash backs...

2005 - I was a junior in high school. Very depressed and Very unsure about life and what I was gonna do next

2000 - I turned 11 and still lived a completely happy (ok not completely..) life in Missouri fairly free of cares

1995 - I was what...7? wow that seems like ages ago...most of those years were a blur...I had three sisters and lived in Missouri.

1990 - What can I say I was three years old. The youngest of three girls and completely unaware of anything else lol

1988 - I was born. haha

jumping back to the present -

2010 - I am currently living in OKC. I live 700+ miles from my family and most of my friends are about that far away too. I work at a school (this is my third year teaching) teaching 18 four year olds according to the Montessori Method.

I realized recently that I have never actually really set "New Years Resolutions" for myself. Mostly because I have always considered them pointless and felt as if I was just setting myself up for more failure which is the last thing I want in my life because I already feel like I fail at almost (if not) everything. But this year I have decided to set some "goals" if you will that aren't something you "complete" or "fail" at. So here we go...

I am determined to keep working on my story. I will not quit writing it because I get frustrated. And I refuse to continue feeling that it is pointless. That story means a lot to me and has become a large part of my life since I started writing it last year. Some things I'd like to see happen with it -
- I would like to draw out the synesthesia that the main character has more then I have
- I would like to see the number of people reading it grow beyond just my close friends
- I would like to completely at least three more chapters before the end of this year

I am determined to work on myself esteem and depression. It is much better then it has been in the past but it is still something I struggle with a lot. There are still things in my life I need to deal with, let go and move past.
- I would like to continue working on my relationship with my parents and the boundaries that I need to set there.
- I would like to meet new people here that I can hang out with, preferably christians that can help encourage and build me up in my walk with the Lord

I am also determind to get in to school and actually start this year. I have decided that Vocal performance is what I want to do and I am going to reach for that dream.
- I would love to get into UCO's modern music school
- I do not want to take out a loan to do so. I want to be able to pay for it or get a scholarship

there. now to get out there and reach for the stars...